No, it's not always easy. But God doesn't want us to just have to deal with "easy". And I've come to accept that. It's just...I'd like to know when it'll eventually get easy!
Nick is now employed at 24 Hour Fitness as a full-time Membership Counselor. It's something... at least for now. He'll be making minimum wage to start, but once he sells enough memberships to make more commission than minimum wage, he'll switch over to that pay rate. I think that with his sales experience, he's going to do very well and will be on a commission salary in no time. But we'll see! There's the potential of making good money there, but he hasn't even started yet. We'll find out soon enough!
The next step is finding a place to live. There are a lot of great apartments in the area that are close to our price range, but it's really hard to even know what we'll be able to qualify for at this point. It's frustrating to just not know where we'll be (financially and literally) in a few months... especially with me only having sixteen weeks left until I explode with child.
That being said, I'm growing very attached to our baby as it grows inside me. It has such spunk and moves around constantly throughout the day. It's amazing that I can actually tell when it's sleeping and when it's awake! Baby will have about a half hour of really active time and then a few hours of quiet. It's just so fun to know that there's a little personality developing in there! I cannot WAIT to meet him/her!
I toured the Birthing Center at Highline (which was totally freaky and weird to think that I was visiting their facility because I am going to have a BABY) and made an appointment with a doctor there, just to start. We will meet on the 25th and then I'll decide if I'm really attached to that doctor or if I want to find someone who delivers at Valley Medical. I'm also touring the Birthing Center at Valley on Sunday, so I'll have a better idea of a comparison between the two hospitals. We will most likely end up at Valley because once we move, it will be much closer to us (since we hope to move to the Renton area). It's just finding a doctor that's the tricky part. There are so many to choose from and I don't have any recommendations! It's pretty overwhelming at this point, but I know God will lead us in the right direction.
To top everything off, I am not working, and don't know if I will be able to at all. BJs is no longer a possibility (thank you to my general manager...UGH) and even if it WAS an easy time to get hired right now, who's going to hire a pregnant woman that can work for only three more months and is not planning to come back after birth? My options are very slim right now and the fact is, we need that extra income. If anyone has ideas, please feel free to share them. Because of this, I have a very open schedule and am able to do little odd jobs. If you have anything to sell on Craigslist or need some organizing done, let me know! Even if you're not able to pay me, it's something to do that I would quite enjoy doing :). I just need a schedule to operate by or I'll go completely crazy.
In spite of all the unknown, God remains faithful and always will. I trust Him with all that I am and I know everything will work out just fine. It's just annoying that He can see the big picture and I can't right now! Sometimes my controlling nature takes over my logic and I just wish I knew everything. It takes a minute, but eventually I realize that I really don't want to know everything and just trusting in Jesus is the way to go. Please remind me of this if I'm beginning to get frustrated. I can use a good kick in the butt every once in a while!
Right now, "easy" is a luxury that we can't quite afford yet. And that is okay.