Well, there's a lot I could say. Ever since this Man walked into my life, things have never been the same. I could say this about my husband, yes, but more than anything I'm talking about the One who saved me and brought me new life. Ever since I began taking direction from Him, things have been completely out of my hands and it is obvious to me that I am living a life that does not only belong to me.
And you know what? I like it that way.
It keeps my ego in check, my pride in a cage and my expectations next to nothing. Any time I try to plan out the next stage in my life, I am forced to understand that it's not my life. And even though things don't always (ever) work out the way I had planned, I end up being blessed beyond my wildest dreams. So why not give up my life if it's just going to be better than I could have ever tried to make it? Sounds pretty simple to me.
Yes, I had planned to finish film school. I had planned to start out my life in the film industry as a married woman without the strains of children clawing at my ankles for attention. I had planned to live in sunny California indefinitely where I could take a ten minute drive to the beach whenever I felt like it.
Then this happened:
We're moving back to Washington. We're going to return to the rain, clouds, grey and traffic. We're also returning to family, friends, community, Mars Hill, teriyaki food, a home of our own and a place of opportunity - the opportunity to strengthen strained relationships. This, above all, makes coming back completely worth it.
And you know what? I never even drive to the ocean when I feel like it anyway.